“Sometimes a moment wasted
IN COOKIE-DELIVERY…
IS LIFE AND DEATH”

Anxiety… do you know about anxiety?

The type that feels like there’s an expanding hot water balloon pressing against my soft parts. Most people would look for help finding weed seeds to grow something to help it, but I push on regardless, dealing with that pressure that never seems to stop building. The type that pumps up the pressure on every cubic-inch of air in the space that I gaspingly occupy. A clinching cast-iron ranch over my lungs that tightens, and then tightens… efforts to breathe muzzled by the air-pressure that squeezes, and just squeezes… neglecting the urgency of a piping hot water balloon in my chest that is screeeeeeching desperately to expand, and EXPAND…

… until, as we all know what happens when you force a ballon, that it just “BAP!”. Fluids of boiling emotions mixed with bloody lumps of raw angst, splattering so violently against the four white walls of my confinement. Even the maddeningly slow motion in which they dribble down, by contrast, fuels my raging urge to scream. Speaking of anxiety, knowing that you could opt to buy CBD related products from here could be a solution to help you relieve your stress levels better than before and hopefully assist you when it comes to being less anxious. You can speak with a medical advisor about this. Of course, if you’re choosing to go down this route, you need knowledge of marijuana and the equipment you need to go along with the plant. For example, what are you going to smoke it with? These mini bongs perhaps, or roll-ups? It’s not for me though. But that leaves me dealing with this anxiety inside, growing and growing.

All of which, is playing out silently and discreetly behind an expression-less front of a woman, typing calmly in front of her computer.

Anxiety.

I mean I need a cookie like right now.

I’m not gonna bother you on why all the over-dramatic-ness and theatrics… I think you’ve had enough of that. The point is, we’ve all been there. Whatever reason and excuse it may be, “there” where we all just desperately need a warm just-out-the-oven cookie, like immediately, not a-drive-away, not ten-cups-and-pans-away, not creaming-your-butter-properly-away and not even a-few-scoops-away, like I mean right now. Because, as I hope I’ve demonstrated, a moment wasted in cookie-delivery, is life and death.

But here’s comes the inconvenient details, that I’m… not a terrific baker. On top of which, a non-terrific-baker who’s very specific about the kind of emergency-cookie that she requires. The type of cookie that has to be crispy and chewy around the edges, but soft, melty and gooey in the center. The type that embodies so much butter, that the “cookie batter” really, requires a substantial amount of chilling time just to be fit to shape. The type of cookie that flattens and expands (well you know, butter…) so much on the baking sheets that the word “batches” is attacking my current fragility.

All in all, my ideal emergency-cookie, isn’t made for emergencies!

Or so I thought, until I spotted an ingenious idea on Martha Stewart about a “skillet cookie”. Now, the point wasn’t at all about the “cookie”, as that particular cookie looked like nothing that would fix any emergencies for me… doughy, dense, bread-y and sorry. The point was, the “skillet”. The skillet is made for my optimal emergency-cookie recipe! Forget baking sheets. Forget chilling time! Forget scoops and spacings and batches! You “pour” the cookie dough into the pan as it will flatten out and set inside the pan like a giant cookie! This idea not only came promptly at the height of my anxiety-surge, but also at a time when I was intrigued by the latest Bon Appetit’s idea of adding sour cream into cookie doughs. Perfect timing…

Oh guys… hot and crispy, golden browned and chewy edges with a good amount towards the center that was warm and barely set… barely set! Hell yeah of course I didn’t give it enough time to cool down completely, are you kidding me!? I ate it with a fork! Which part of “emergency” did you not understand? Although I’m still not sure what did the sour cream do for the cookies, a “tang” maybe? But I assure you that I have no intention to take it out either. It saved me. Like, I didn’t go ballistic and started painting the flaming skull of death over the bathroom mirror with my toothpastes, because of this. On top of bandages and such, this is the recipe you should keep in your emergency kit.

Well if you must fuss, this form of delivery doesn’t make it the easiest thing to be packed and shared.

But then seriously. You want to share my cookies right now? Like Yeah?

Try me.

Makes: one 12-inches (30 cm) in diameter cookie

I mixed my cookie dough in another bowl which already made this a “one bowl” recipe, but in hindsight, perhaps the dough could even be mixed in the skillet, making this a “one pan, no bowl” recipe?

UPDATE 2014/02/10: A couple commenters mention that the cookie rises quite a bit during baking, resulting in a less dense/gooey cookie. Based on tracing back my steps and retrials, I think it could be for a few reasons.

1. Try reducing the oven-temperature down to 330?F/165?C. I tried making the cookie again at this temperature and it worked out better than the last time.
2. The egg I used was really on the smaller side of a large egg (definitely not extra large), in between a medium and a large. Since the batter/dough is in such small quantity, little things start to make a difference, so if you are using a real large egg, the extra egg-content could have made the dough risen more.
3. The cookie really needs to undercook a little. In the recipe I said 18~20 min, but the second trial took only about 18 min. If you are concerned about the top not browning in time, you can turn the oven to top-heat for the last 5 min.
4. Update 2014/02/17: When all else fails, reduce baking soda to 1/8 tsp. If you over-baked your cookie resulting in a more cake-y texture (and yes I do this a lot), poke a few holes on the hot cookie and press it down with a spoon. Yeah, sometimes violence fix things.

Sour cream and chocolate chips skillet-cookie: adapted from many recipe combined

• 7 tbsp (100 grams) of unsalted butter
• 1/2 cup (100 grams) of brown sugar
• 2 tbsp (25 grams) of granulated sugar
• 1 large egg
• 1/4 cup (55 grams) of sour cream
• 1/2 tbsp of vanilla extract
• 1 cup (125 grams) of all-purpose flour
• 3/4 tsp of sea salt
• 1/4 tsp of baking soda
• 1/2 cup (70 grams) of semi-sweet chocolate chips
• 1/2 cup (70 grams) of finely chopped bitter-sweet (dark) chocolate
• More sea salt for sprinkling

Preheat oven on 330?F/165?C (originally written at 350?F/180?C, but please see the updates above regarding oven temperature), on top/bottom heat.

Heat up the unsalted butter inside a large bowl in the microwave until just melted, but not hot. Add the brown sugar and granulated sugar and whisk until smoothly combined. Then whisk in the large egg until thick and velvety, then add the sour cream and vanilla extract and whisk until smooth. Sift the all-purpose flour, sea salt and baking soda together into the bowl and stir until evenly mixed. Fold in the semi-sweet chocolate chips and chopped bitter-sweet chocolate so they are evenly distributed.

Lightly butter a 12″ (30 cm) oven-proof skillet, then distribute the cookie dough evenly inside the skillet in dollops. Doesn’t have to smooth it out. Sprinkle a few grains of sea salt over the top and place the skillet on the middle-rack and back for 18~20 min, then increase the temperature up to 400?F/200?C TOP-HEAT and bake until the top is golden browned, approx 3 min.

* The cookie wouldn’t be completely set unless fully cooled down. If you want a sturdier/crispier bottom, place the skillet on the very bottom of the oven first and bake for 18 min, or until the sides are slightly browned. Then move the skillet to the middle-rack, increase the temperature up to 400?F/200?C TOP-HEAT, and bake until the top is golden browned as well, approx 3 min.

Let it cool slightly inside the skillet, if you can, before slicing in wedges.